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Most people start out with where they are born, because I can't tell you where I was born oddly. I supposed somebody told me at some time but I was adopted so I don't really know where I was born, so when peopleProxy-Connection: keep-alive Cache-Control: max-age=0 ay where were you born I can't really say. So I was adopted and my parents, my adoptive parents, were my foster parents for years. When they took my sister and I from our mother. Which I've heard various things about, one was that she was, her name was Chloe. I think she was British, or maybe I found out she was British, I don't know which. I have a real affinity for things English and I always have. So anyway my sister and I, I'm a twin, I think I said that. My sister and I were adopted, when we were about 4 or 5, and theirs this really cute thing they do where they take you into this room with a judge and the judge tells you like, makes your parents leave the room, makes the parents leave the room and asks "do you want to go with these people?" And you were like, I guess we nodded our heads happily, he gave us suckers and then we were adopted. So I lived in Tanuwanda, in Buffalo NY. It was a quiet little suburb and I lived a quiet little life. Was very quiet, doesn't have much of a personality I think until I went to college, when I suddenly started having a personality, I think. And I came out as being gay and that's one of the things that defined my personality, for better or for worse. In fact, I think most people, most gay people, struggle with how much that defines them in their life. So thats... part of me. My twin sister and I are still pretty close, I'm fairly close to my family. I don't consider myself in the closet from anybody right now, I feel like I'm pretty open. Now the trick is to be open to myself and to figure out who I am, and to be okay with that. I've oddly taken, a sort of, a very self reflective turn the last few years. I'm thinking a lot about identity and who I am. I feel very different then when I went to high school, extremely different, I'm 34 right now, and I feel like I used to be a very simple and very happy person and a very positive person and some how I feel like that's all changed. I feel like I've lost myself on the way. And I've come to this place, and I'm living in this apartment, and I'm surrounded by these things which are very familiar to me, which I love, but theirs some way that I feel unmored from my past. Theirs a disjunct between my present and my past, which I'm trying to figure out. And I don't know what that has to do with it, it has to do with my being adopted and not understanding my past, somehow. And I'm very conscious or sensitive about being all about what happened to me when I was little, is that a determining factor in my life. So putting that all to the side, I'm a grant writer for a living, thats how I make my living right now. I'm a visual artist, I do portraits, I consider myself to be a portrait artist. And I write fiction, I try to get things published, when people want to publish them. That's both art and writing. And I'm a collector, as you say my childrens backdrop is vinal, I'm really into records, I'm very into music. Music's like, extraordinarily important to me. I'm hungry to listen to new music all the time. When I mean new, I mean old. I'm very interested in American popular music of the 40's and 50's. I'm obsessed lately with Bing Crosby, and I'll stop anywhere on the street and tell him how I think Dorris Day was the most, I think the best, female singers of our time. So I'm very into music. So I guess that's my life. Oh, 25 seconds to recap... We'll delve into the future now, future of my life. I have a wonderful partner, a beautiful man that I'm in love with, whose not here right now. I hope very much that he'll be in my life, for the rest of my years. And I guess that's my life, thanks.